WOW. So much has changed, I honestly never really thought I would have the strength to look back on this blog. I think its because right here is where I documented all of my hope and dreams that came crashing down, my entire life fell apart. I cannot begin to describe the journey I have endured-the heartbreak, the tears, hitting rock bottom-but then came the strength and solid foundation I found in family and friends-people who have loved me with unconditional love, who have never and WILL NEVER lose faith in me. I know I have gone through something most people dont face until they are well into mid-life (respectively). Most 21 year olds don't go through what I have went through, but to be completely honest, most 21 year olds have not aquired the wisdom that I have gained by having that experience. So, I am proud to say I AM BACK. It took time, and its still going to take a lot more time-but I am in a place in my life that I feel like I have always been searching for. I have been blessed with the amazing people that are in my life, and those people, they will be there forever. So heres to family and friends-to the people that will be there through thick and thin-and will love you-no matter what MISTAKES you may make or have made-until the very end-or rather into infinity and beyond.
So...as much as I would have liked to just erase my previous posts, I wont. I won't because I do not and will never regret the things in the past. But I will understand that there is a reason why they are in the past-and to learn from them the best way I can. I have to embrace my life-wherever I may be at that point. I know now why I endured so much pain-only to be able to rebuild myself into an even more beautiful person who knows who she is and where she is going-and I will never compromise that ever, ever again-or let anyone tell me differently.
I have so much to share! My life is beautifully crazy right now. I just moved out of my parents house into a house in Santa Rosa with my best friend from third grade (Brena or 'Bean' as I like to call her) and her awesome roommate Rachel. We have Lucy with us and we are settling in...had our first sleep over last night :) I am working two jobs, one with a printing company for the holiday season and a waitressing job at a little vietnamese restaurant downtown-in which my boss is probably better labeled as my partner in crime. I am returning to school next semester and couldn't be more ready. I have found my groove in life, and Im dancing every minute of it!
In the words of my right hand lady-Brena- heres to new beginnings, experiences that have torn us down, not being a boomerang, and finding ourselves in the middle of all the mess. Heres to being on a new, and beautiful leaf.
